almost like normal

December 18, 2011 |  Category:   craft family holidays life

well, hello.

Last night I came home from working the table all day at the Brooklyn Flea and collapsed on the couch and pretty much went to sleep right then and there. I hadn’t gone to the bathroom or eaten anything all day, not even a coffee(!) because I didn’t want to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes which is what happens when I drink coffee on an empty stomach. I have no explanation for not eating except that I was sandwiched in between the donut people and the pork belly people all day, so I don’t know, I guess I wasn’t feeling it because I was smelling food all day. I suddenly had the chills when I got home and was convinced that I was getting sick so I slept. I woke up past midnight and dragged myself to bed, but couldn’t fall back asleep till hours later of course. 1:45am, 2:30, 3:15. When I woke up in the morning I felt ok.

So I vacuumed. And cleaned. And dusted. And did laundry. And put things away. And cut snowflakes with the girls. And gave Mia a piano lesson.

Just normal things. It felt good. Almost like I woke up and all that other stuff from the previous weeks never happened. It’s sort of like pregnancy and child birth, you know? I think we’re programmed to forget the pain so that we’ll do it all over again.

My work for the business is pretty much done. I have some gift boxes to assemble this week, but not hundreds. Mark’s still in the trenches but it’s manageable, like a normal workload week, not stressful, crazy time orders pumped up on steroids (so far!). By Saturday night he was cooking dinner again for the girls when I got home, playing that game of cards that Claudine had wanted to play and reading them a bedtime story. He was back.

I read through last year’s December posts this afternoon out of curiosity while I drank my coffee this afternoon after all the cleaning was done. Even though I remembered just how crazy last holiday season was (with the added stress of big work deadlines that I thankfully didn’t have this this year), I was surprised at how lengthy some of the posts were…and I was even funny in some of them! But this holiday…I don’t know…kind of sucked the life out of us. Some sobering realities. I’ll share soon.

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  • stuffedmice December 19, 2011 at 5:01 am

    glad you’re back. hope the rest of the week is much more relaxed for all of you!

  • Karen December 19, 2011 at 6:33 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I know you’re super busy so you don’t have to respond or post but I wanted to share that my husband and I have recently bought a cafe (he is a chef), he works in the cafe and I help out with the book work. This week it has been 28 weeks since we took over and things are good but tough. I read your posts and more often than not it is the first thing I read after I log on, it is nice to see your beautiful photos and similar stories. Whether it be a manic day, something with the girls (I have two little boys) or just an observation about something it is nice, and it cheers up my day. I know that maybe there are many people out there going through similar things and thoughts (was the business a good idea, will we ever go on holidays again, how can we ‘work’ more and fit more in and then try and have time for yourself/ keep your mental sanity – theses are just a few of mine). Anyways I just wanted to share as you share a lot and I am sure many readers appreciate it. I am glad you got some time today, it usually comes when you need it. Enjoy the festive season and all the best to you and your family. Karen x

  • Helle (Helen) December 19, 2011 at 6:38 am

    Well good to hear you’re over the worst and that the girls got to do lots of things with you guys. Love the top picture with the bokeh in the background.

  • Chaucee December 19, 2011 at 8:22 am

    It’s okay to not top last years Christmas : ) Sometimes it’s just about keeping your sanity.I hope you are able to relax this week and enjoy what’s left of the festivities!

  • Cecilia Madden December 19, 2011 at 9:21 am

    Glad the worst part is over.
    Also, those snowflakes are serious. Love them! I made two paper snowflakes this year and my 2yr old daughter was not impressed/slightly confused, as in, “Why are you doing that when I clearly want you to be doing something else?”
    I’m sure it was so nice to get a little quality time in with your girls.

  • A of Little Alexander December 19, 2011 at 9:29 am

    Thanks for posting about your Holiday craziness. This was the first year we’ve ever had a Christmas rush (as new comers to the world of selling things), and while it was nothing in comparison to yours, it was really nice to hear about someone else’s experience of this to not feel crazy or alone. Our rush is over now, too, so we’re also relieved to get back to life as usual.

  • Atsuko December 19, 2011 at 10:25 am

    Welcome back to the normal lifestyle! I am glad that you were able to take some nap after busy work days. Isn’t always funny to look back one’s past, is it? The past accomplishments become motivation for me sometimes to over come some challenging moment. I am very curious to know realities you will share with us soon.

  • Eve December 19, 2011 at 11:31 am

    Jenna, is that your ipad under the tree….oooooooh the self-control!! :)

  • Misha December 19, 2011 at 12:49 pm

    Peace and strength to you and your sweet family this Christmas and New Year… Glad to see things are settling back down for you and you’re able to breathe a little.
    Bring on the New Year and all its unfilled glory and fill it up with love and success!

  • Jenna December 19, 2011 at 1:06 pm

    @Eve, ha, it’s not! That’s in the closet. And yes…I do have self control!

  • diamondkelt December 19, 2011 at 1:34 pm

    High five for coming out on the other side.

  • Carolyn December 19, 2011 at 6:22 pm

    I’ve been following your blog for about a year now and always love reading your frank, insightful and funny takes on the ups (and downs!) of family life and the life of an entrepreneur. Good luck with the holiday madness and thanks for the great posts.

  • lulu December 19, 2011 at 11:38 pm

    ok, where do you get your kids clothes …? they are just too good!

  • lulu December 19, 2011 at 11:52 pm

    ah! just read the q & a section and now i know .. cherubs.

  • Seema December 20, 2011 at 4:29 am

    I’ve found the same thing recently – life really is sucking it out of me. You’re doing brilliantly keeping on top of it all though – lovely tree!

  • Vivian Doan December 20, 2011 at 12:59 pm

    Can I say “At least you’ve got a tree!”. We just had our first baby 6 months ago and couldn’t get organized to get ourselves a Christmas tree :(

  • Elisabeth December 20, 2011 at 2:13 pm

    I love your blog!!! I so hope you and your sweet family can finally enjoy Peace on Earth, the true reason for the season. Blessings…………………..

  • scentual soundtracks December 20, 2011 at 2:59 pm

    Wishing you all of the love and peace this season that your heart can hold. I love your blog and you are always inspiring, since way back when I was working on the dissertation and I came across your blog (mentioned a while ago). <3