Things are good (but what is up with it being mid-February already?). I can’t help but want time to slow down, but also speed up so we can get past this bump of work craziness. I’ve been designing a lot along tight deadlines the past 6 weeks. I’m grateful for the work, but I’m feeling like my brain needs a rest soon or at least switch gears for a week or else I think my head might explode.
So I took a break and a walk by myself today around the East Village towards Chinatown. After the snow over the weekend, the weather has been milder with super sunny days. It gives a glimmer of hope that spring is imminently on it’s way. The light at 5:30pm tells me this too.
I tend to cocoon myself in our apartment when I have a lot of deadlines. I’m all wrapped up in my own head space and it’s easy to forget that there’s a world outside of my own. A long walk makes things right and the world opens wide again, especially in a neighborhood that I have a lot of history with and have lived in the past. It makes me think about stuff that happened 25 years ago on the same sidewalks where I’m walking and it also makes me think about my girls who might spend time of their own here someday as teenagers just like I did. That time, really, is not that far away.
I find that I’m looking at a lot of things with this past/future lens lately now that the girls are of this age. They were watching some teen sports award show on the Cartoon Network last night, a show that they talked excitedly about for a month and voted for winners online. I didn’t even think they knew anything about teen celebrities (well, Claudine did admit that she voted for people at random and didn’t know who anybody was). I sat down with them for a bit to see what they were giddy about and laughing over as they watched the show. When I got up I said to Mark as I passed him in the kitchen, “It’s kind of like the MTV awards”. This made me pause, then smile. I remember how I excited I was watching the MTV video awards when I was a kid. And then I got it.