Woke up in an unexplained bad mood today which totally derailed our plans for the day – and I did have some grand plans for us that involved geeky gadgetry and beehives (ok, it wasn’t as interesting as that sounds, but I had plans). I spent part of the day feeling bad about it, struggling to keep it contained and not taking it out on the girls. I don’t know if I was successful or not, but sometimes you just have to remove yourself from people when moods like that strike. So I did what I usually do when I’m in a bad mood. I cleaned. This is when the best cleaning happens. Not just surface dusting stuff, but scrubbing the grout with an old toothbrush kind of clean. You know, suddenly feeling the need to put that micro hose attachment on the vacuum cleaner and sucking up dust bunnies that you know are all balled up in the corners of rooms, under furniture. Yeah, that felt good.
I’m in one of those cycles where I’m feeling a bit out of sync with people again. Summer schedules can be so different from the norm that it’s not uncommon to go the whole summer without seeing our neighbors. Maybe it’s also because I’ve made a real effort in breaking the habit of constantly being on Twitter/Facebook/Instagram, which is really easy to do when you’re on the computer working all day because let me tell you, internet ADD is REAL. For the most part, it’s been great to break that habit and it’s helped me to filter out the noise and just focus on what’s going on in my life, but the downside is feeling disconnected from the friends that I do like to converse with everyday online. It’s like missing out on all the water cooler office banter and then not getting all the inside jokes later when I do log on. Meh, I don’t know. Where’s the balance?
I’ve been blogging less this summer too. I admit I’ve grown a bit disenchanted with how commercial blogging has become and I know that I am grossly overgeneralizing with that statement, but I suspect you know what I mean. I’ve just about stopped reading most blogs altogether and I can’t help but wonder where it’s all headed. I’m not saying there is anything wrong with sponsored content, events, ads, affiliate links and the like (I’ve been using some affiliate links for about a year myself), but are we headed toward some kind of reality where everything is co-branded, sponsored and product placed? I know in the past I have considered putting up ads and I did go as far as have a phone call and some email exchanges with a few ad networks, but in the end it was still not something I was comfortable with yet (and I decided that I would only do it if I was completely comfortable with it). This makes me either a loser for over-thinking things (as usual) or some kind of insufferable snob for not being able to blog about, oh I don’t know, air fresheners sponsored by Glade. You take your pick. I mean, isn’t money just money? What’s wrong with me? But the more I hear from PR firms inquiring about a possible working relationship and asking to see my traffic numbers, the more I realize that if I did go down that road, blogging would become a numbers game in which I would have to start paying attention to page views and stats.
I really don’t want to obsess about my blog traffic.
PS – This is so not a dig at anyone who blogs for a living. I’ve just concluded for now that I would really suck as a professional blogger. I’m just really crabby, that’s all. It’s also 3am right now so obviously way past my bedtime.
PPS. Wouldn’t it be ironic if this post was sponsored by Midol?