All signs point to here

March 27, 2014 |  Category:   life rambling


It’s so boring to keep talking about the weather, I know, but it’s 1 step forward, two steps back with this Spring. Didn’t I say that March could be cruel? But it’s also been the perfect analogy for the month I’ve been having (and maybe for some of you out there too, from what I read). Highs and lows, progress and setbacks. In the end though, things eventually normalize and settle. When you find that you’re still pointed in the same direction that you were headed before the most recent wave of events flung everything up in the air in a moment of confusion, then it should be confirmation enough that you’re headed in the right direction.


Self doubt and the fear of the unknown reveal the ugly side of self employment, at least for me. On the other side of the mirror, constant questioning and a future of possibilities puts a positive spin on those same states. Really just depends on which side you’re standing.
But there are signs of life and regrowth and spring if you look carefully. Never thought I would be so happy to spot the tips of bulbs pushing their way up from the ground, or the snowdrops that I would have missed if I was rushing around as usual. I don’t mean to sound like a self-help booklet, but sometimes it’s hard to keep pushing forward all the damn time, particularly when you’re not even certain where it is you’re suppose to go. But I tell you what…the grass is always greener – always – but it’s not all that it seems and often, it’s just a projection of what we want to see. I think it’s human nature to yearn for the things that we feel we are missing, whether it’s real, imagined or something that we just want. Sometimes you’re reminded of just how great your life is by other people who may yearn for something that is different in your life than what they have in theirs. By all accounts life is great, that much is true. But the constant quest to fill the holes that we perceive to be the keys to fulfillment and happiness is the fire that keeps us pushing forward. For some people, that fire burns too bright to ignore.
What I know for sure is that we all need people. We can’t do it alone. Even the zombie apocalypse tells me so (a Walking Dead reference, naturally).
Now, how’s that for vagueblogging?

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  • Anna L. March 27, 2014 at 10:45 am

    Oh Jenna, it’s like you have the key to unlock the words in my heart and soul. I’ve been enjoying your writing/stories, photography, and baked goods for six years now and you never cease to amaze me with how much I relate to your thoughts. As always, thank you for sharing your heart and genuinity. I still check for your latest and greatest post every day <3 With love, from Portland, OR

    • Jenna March 27, 2014 at 11:18 am

      Hello Anna! Give a hug to Portland for me. Miss that part of the country so much.

  • Rachel March 27, 2014 at 12:10 pm

    Whenever I get a case of the Grass is Always Greeners, I try to remind myself that my perception of other peoples’ lives is usually based off of what I see on the internet, and if I were to look at my own life as portrayed online, you would see pretty much nothing but traveling, sunshine, and rainbows, which is definitely not all there is to it (she said as she sat typing in bed, feeling slightly directionless and sighing a lot). I also fall into a pit of comparing myself to everyone else at once, clumping them all together into one entity that is collectively doing everything I’m not, having successes I’m not, changing the world while I’m not. And deep down I also know that life really is great. And I am grateful. But that doesn’t make it easy.

  • Lakshmi March 28, 2014 at 10:42 am

    Oh, so vague and yet so dead-on specific… :)

    • Jenna March 28, 2014 at 10:45 am

      Ha! Yes, I suppose.

  • LM March 28, 2014 at 11:54 am

    Hi Jenna-
    Wanted to comment on a past post where you posed the question, “What have you accomplished in a year that was new and different than the year before?”
    I couldn’t comment on it for one reason or another, but I’m glad because I think it relates to this post. That question has become a guiding force for my own life. If I can answer that question- I’m doing alright. When the answer becomes “I’m not sure”, that’s when I’ll worry.

    As always, thanks for asking questions I didn’t even know I was asking myself.

    • Jenna March 28, 2014 at 1:35 pm

      Hi LM, oh I remember that post, and yes…I still use that as the benchmark question. I’m glad someone else finds it useful too! cheers.

  • jennifer April 2, 2014 at 2:05 pm

    Jenna, I’m a long time reader and I can’t even tell you how much this post resonated with me. I recently moved to Germany and my husband and I share a creative business and I’ve been in such a huge funk lately. a mixture of homesickness + working like crazy and sometimes wondering what for + not really able to meet so many people here yet + language barrier… self doubt and immense fear is so present for me at the moment!

    anyway, I hope you are feeling a little better, and thank you so much for sharing in such a beautiful and honest way.

    best best wishes to you!