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new haircut

new haircut

October 25, 2011 |  Category:   me rambling

Nah, it’s not really that short. It’s just pulled back, but sometimes I wonder if I should cut it short like this and then I remember how much maintenance it took all the times I had short hair, and I’ve had short hair probably half my life. I usually end up only getting a haircut twice a year. Making haircut appointments are about as painful as making dental appointments in the same way that both get pushed aside when I’m too busy, but I’m going to try and be better about that, particularly since I found a new stylist thanks to Anna (basically I’m just going to do whatever Anna tells me to do). The haircut actually looks like this:… CONTINUE READING

America

America

July 28, 2011 |  Category:   life rambling

You know what it is, this mid-summer doldrums I’m in right now? I’ve realized the news is really dragging me down. I don’t even know why I click on every headline about some crazy person killing their toddler over some nonsense, but I do and I need to stop. Not to mention the Norway shootings and this whole debt ceiling stalemate. I don’t even fully understand how the debt ceiling works, but it’s just a larger picture of the state of things around here. It’s sort of easy to just get caught up in your own little bubble world, your own circles, your own friends, your own life. You read the news, but file it away because what you do… CONTINUE READING

sell out

sell out

July 19, 2011 |  Category:   life rambling the biz

“Selling out” is kind of an annoying, throw away phrase, isn’t it? Like a visceral reaction to anything that goes mainstream or involves capitalism. But I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I think when we were kids, when we were out there regularly protesting the Persian Gulf War or protesting gentrification, or animal cruelty or pretty much anything else that we could protest, we swore that we would never compromise our beliefs. We tried to live outside the mainstream as much as we could within an urban environment, be politically and socially active, and temporarily drop out of society altogether during the summer months to camp out in the woods. So when did things change? I’m not in… CONTINUE READING

when you’re the breadwinner in the family

when you’re the breadwinner in the family

June 30, 2011 |  Category:   family favorite posts life me nyc rambling

Actually, it’s all I’ve ever known. My mom was always the breadwinner of our family and the one who made all the financial decisions. Maybe on the exterior it appeared like my dad was the head of the family, but in truth, my mom quietly ruled the household finances behind the scenes. It made for an uncomfortable dynamic, a reversal of roles in a culture where traditionally, the man is seen as the patriarch. It became even more magnified when my mom started earning big money when she switched careers to real estate from nursing. Nobody was fooled after that into thinking my mom wasn’t the money maker. As a girl growing up, my parents’ relationship was confusing and difficult… CONTINUE READING

when being your own boss isn’t enough

when being your own boss isn’t enough

April 27, 2011 |  Category:   life me rambling

I’ve been feeling restless again. Oh, you know me…it’s nothing new, but I’m feeling like I need to do SOMETHING. A change – and I will be the first one to admit that this feeling is cyclical – but here it is again, for the umpteenth time. I have lost count. That feeling. Perhaps I am fickle. Or bored. Or unchallenged. Or restless. I know I declared this very thing almost 2 years ago. That I wanted to make the moves to transition careers, but then….I had the best year ever as a freelancer, after having my best years as a freelancer the 2 years before and I was busy, no room to even breathe. The surprising thing about it… CONTINUE READING

who needs Tiger Mom when you have stereotypes to fulfill?

who needs Tiger Mom when you have stereotypes to fulfill?

February 10, 2011 |  Category:   family parenting rambling remembering

Blah blah, Tiger Mom, blah blah. After reading the WSJ excerpts, every X/Y generation Asian-American comes forward with their own war stories! Westerners are appalled! It’s old news by now so why do I bring this up now? I admit that I didn’t read the original article till rather recently. I snorted and dismissed it when I saw how the article was titled: “Why Chinese Mothers are Superior”. But then you know, a rap song came out…and parodies… and memes, so I finally followed a link and read the essay (here you go if you’ve been living under a rock). None of it was shocking, but not because I was raised by a Tiger mom (this phrase is seriously cringe-worthy,… CONTINUE READING

about that whole “getting old” thing

about that whole “getting old” thing

November 12, 2010 |  Category:   life me rambling

It’s weird, you know? Because in a lot of ways I still feel like my younger self. An indeterminate age, but not my age, not 40. No, just my generically vague numbered younger self. Do you know what I mean when I say I feel “ageless”? All evidence points to the fact that I am, indeed, an adult. I have kids, a mortgage, I go to parent-teacher school conferences, I sign report cards, I pay my life insurance bills, I get my HVAC maintained twice a year. These are things adults do. And yet, in my mind, I’m not any different than I was 20 years ago – ok, scratch that, there are some differences, like I don’t think I… CONTINUE READING

say no

say no

March 24, 2010 |  Category:   life rambling

1 month on this intensive work schedule and I’m starting to lose focus of the goals I set earlier this year. All those personal and Whimsy-related projects I was excited about are becoming distant and hazy. I think if you aren’t in there diving into them, you start to either over think the ideas too much or not give them enough attention and they start to lose their point and meaning. In a weird way, I almost feel like I’m taking the easy way out after having set all those goals earlier in the year. When you’re working on client projects you’re given clear assignments, a deadline and at the end, a paycheck. It’s much harder to do your own… CONTINUE READING

and then there is paris. or not.

and then there is paris. or not.

January 31, 2010 |  Category:   life nyc rambling travels

Remember last year when I declared that we were going to Paris this year? Yeah, ok. That dream is dead postponed. That Paris fund, which I admit never got its own separate account like I had planned, has now turned into the Claudine preschool fund. Or at least a small percentage because I’m not telling you how much her preschool is going to cost next year for 4 almost full days a week. It’s an embarrassing amount of money, an unthinkable amount of money for 1 year of preschool. Think of an outrageous figure and double that (if you’re not in the NYC metro area, than triple or quadruple it). So is it worth it? I’m not normally the type… CONTINUE READING

it’s not you, it’s me. or maybe it’s all of us.

it’s not you, it’s me. or maybe it’s all of us.

November 18, 2009 |  Category:   art + design life rambling

There’s something going around. No, not an illness, though there is some of that too as the girls have been coughing incessantly and it doesn’t seem to be going away. I’m talking about a slight shift or maybe even the start of something bigger for people like me, of this age, in a similar situation who is feeling a desperate need to change their careers and lives. You’ve heard me express my general feelings of indifference towards graphic design which has been my “career”, but while I’ve often had passing thoughts about breaking away from client-based design work, I have never felt the pull so strong as I have in the last few months. I’m not exactly sure what flipped… CONTINUE READING

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