Mark is still going non-stop as this week has proven to be just as busy as last week: a bunch of wholesale orders, brisk online sales, 2 weddings and 2 cake orders plus the Flea this Saturday. I’m still not working these days but I am waiting for at least 2 projects to start which are in their contracting phase (and I’m not breathing any sighs of relief until I have a definitive start date – anything can still fall through). It is so weird though, because despite the lack of work, the days have been so busy and I almost can’t remember – or even fathom – working 8 hours a day in addition to all the stuff I’ve been doing daily just to make sure everything is running smoothly. It’s not like I am taking on more or less stuff around the house. The laundry still needs to get done, the house still needs to get cleaned, Mia still needs to get dropped off and picked up, business emails still need to get answered and cookies still need to be packed, but how did I work on top of all this? It makes me realize how crazy our schedule is when I’m juggling 2-3 projects and that the current pace of affairs is so much more sane, so much more civilized. I think this is why I still don’t have any leftover energy to tackle that long list of projects and it makes me feel a little less guilty, because you know what? Life is just busy, period.
One thing that I *have* been doing with this bit of spare time is meet with friends for lunch or a coffee. Even though I never feel out of touch with people anymore because of all the various ways to stay connected (like a friend and I realized the other day that we had “talked” via twitter, facebook, email and text…all within 2 hours, geez), it is so nice to be able to sit down across from one another and catch up. I even went impromptu boot shopping the other day with my friend RJ which turned into a shopping therapy session. We sat on the bench at a shoe store and analyzed and rationalized to death potential shoe purchases. But it’s those moments I miss when I am crazy busy – shopping with a girlfriend, being an enabler of purchases, and waking around the city window shopping, looking at stuff, being inspired by stuff. When I’m working, there is too much staying indoors. Sometimes days go by when I don’t even leave the house because I need to stay focused on work and there is so much to get done.
I’ve had many fantasy thoughts lately about the business supporting us so that I wouldn’t have to take on so many projects at once or worry when there is a dry spell. Some days I feel like this is achievable. Other days I am not sure whether it is even logistically possible in our current situation if Mark can even single-handedly bake that many cookies a month to pay all of our bills. Maybe one day I will do the math. I am a little afraid to find out.