Another Christmas done, another year gone.

December 26, 2015 |  Category:   holidays life







We’re enjoying the kind of laziness that can only come after breathing a sigh of relief as we close another busy holiday season. It feels well earned, and maybe the only time of year when the guilt of doing nothing but sitting on the couch watching movies and TV shows dissipate into pure bliss and satisfaction. But like most years, I can’t help but feel a little bit of a let down when Christmas day finally arrives. So much preparation, planning and shopping for one day…and then it’s all done, just like that. It was a very pleasant day, nonetheless, though a bit quiet. Sometimes traditions slowly take shape and ours the last few years have involved morning walks on the beach and a movie later in the day (Star Wars!). This year, the temperature broke records so we didn’t even put our coats on. My mom remarked how glad she was that she had her granddaughters around to spend the holidays with, otherwise it would be lonely and depressing. I think about that too, and wonder what the holidays will be like when the kids leave the nest.

There was a restlessness today, the day after Christmas. It went unspoken until my dad suddenly called us from downstairs and told us to get dressed for the cemetery. We were in the car in less than 10 minutes. When we got home after paying respects to my brother, he announced how much better he felt. This is the most I’ll get out of my dad – he doesn’t really reveal too much of how he feels, but that’s nothing different from most Asian families I suspect. My mom told me later that he was crying outside earlier in the morning.

It’s hard not to reflect on the year when you’re so close to ringing in the next. It’s been an interesting year and not one I ever imagined having. I look forward to finally having closure on something that has been plaguing me. Whatever the outcome, at least it will be done. On the work front, 2016 should prove to be an interesting year. Another Christmas done and another year gone. I hope you and yours had a lovely holiday. See you in the new year.

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  • Payal December 27, 2015 at 12:41 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I’ve been following your blog for a long time and always appreciate your honesty and perspective on life in general. Wishing you and your family a peaceful, joyful & healthy 2016.

  • Ronnie December 27, 2015 at 6:21 am

    Merry Christmas, Jenna. I know what you mean in terms of Christmas day going by so quickly after all that preparation and anticipation. It’s always a funny feeling. Thank you for sharing that little snippet about your family paying respects to your brother. On our way to a family gathering today, we drove past the crematorium where Cameron’s remains are, and I found myself reaching instinctively for Rick’s hand. Sometimes there are no words.
    Much love,
    Ronnie xo

  • Helle December 27, 2015 at 12:50 pm

    I have that feeling as well, all this hype and gearing up for that one – here in Europe – evening. Having lost a loved one much too early must add a different dimension, I’m happy for your family you had that time together and that your father felt better afterwards. All the best for the coming year, hope things word out the way you’d like them to.

  • Judith December 28, 2015 at 12:00 pm

    This is your longtime lurker from The Netherlands, thanking you for another year of thought-provoking words and beautiful images. I was touched by your story of your family visiting the cemetery to pay respect to your brother. Missing a loved one isn’t easy and the holidays can make the gap feel even huger.

    I had an annus horribilis myself this year and it doesn’t seem to be ending on a positive note either. Nevertheless the new year feels like a clean slate, funny how that works. Wishing you and your family a good 2016, looking forward to another year of following your blog.

  • csl2124 December 28, 2015 at 10:54 pm

    Merry Christmas and happy holidays, may your family know no more sorrow in the new year.

  • gizella January 2, 2016 at 10:53 pm

    I love reading your updates and seeing where you’ve been. i kind of treasure these break weeks to get my head on straight and start again. Happy New Year!

  • Sora January 4, 2016 at 2:53 pm

    Happy New Year, Jenna. Hoping it’s filled with good things for you and your family.