A lost season

December 7, 2018 |  Category:   life

I don’t think I’ve ever skipped a month writing here in the 10 years of blogging (as infrequent as my posts have become this year), but I missed November entirely – and now here we are. Maybe you’ve felt this too, but I’ve been really conscious of where I’m putting my energy these days and I’ve found that cultivating real life interactions and relationships is taking priority over anything online. It’s not just pulling back, but also questioning where social media and blogging fits into our lives at this point. Many of us went in so hard on social media in the early days that I think we’re struggling to find that happy medium. I miss the stories that I used to write here – real storytelling as opposed to life updates, but writing has its own pace and inspiration. 

But the real news is that there has been a lot of changes that were set in motion since we came back from Europe and this Fall was a total blur. Like I blinked and it was over. When I opened my eyes it was almost as if half our household had a completely different life. I’m aware I’m being cryptic, and I really hate that kind of vague posting, but I want to hold on to things a little while longer because we’re still settling into our new routine while in the throes of HolidayCookieMadness! I believe this is our 11th holiday season. Sometimes I read back on those posts from the early years and chuckle because we were so frazzled in December. Don’t get me wrong – December is still completely crazy, but maybe after you’ve been around the block a few times you aren’t so shellshocked when it comes around every season 🙂

I do like that life propels itself ever forward. I do thrive on change. I think you win at life when you can recognize that you’re no longer growing and can then set change into motion. Or maybe that is my definition of winning. I have a feeling that we’ll be reassessing our life further in a few years, but I’ve already taken steps to take better control and reign in some bad habits I developed over the past 10 years, like my ridiculous late night sleep schedule of getting to bed every night at 2am (or later!). 

After our holiday flurry of orders are done, I’m really looking forward to a real break during the holidays – no work, no obligations – just time spent with family. That is only 2 weeks away (again, where did the season go?). I’m pretty excited for 2019 though, of settling into our new routines and seeing where the year leads. I hope all of you who are still reading are doing well. I promise there will be another post before the year ends. 

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  • Vanessa December 7, 2018 at 10:15 pm

    Here’s to change, I like it too.

    • Jenna December 12, 2018 at 7:42 am

      Yes, change is good!

  • Gianni December 9, 2018 at 12:31 am

    Yes I’m still reading and looking forward to your posts.

    p.s. I’m doing well and hope you are too.

    • Jenna December 12, 2018 at 7:42 am

      Thank you Gianni. Yes, all is well over here. Glad to hear you are too.

  • janet yoon December 10, 2018 at 10:17 pm

    I know we are in very different phases of our lives (I am single, in my early thirties, only worrying about the well-being of myself, my cat, and my immediate family) but I can certainly empathize with the feeling of having to get comfortable with being *uncomfortable* – the forces we simply can’t control. Year-end is also a busy time for me. The end is nigh, and a fresh start is near!

    • Jenna December 12, 2018 at 7:43 am

      Hope you get through your busy period. Happy holidays Janet!

  • Melissa@Julia's Bookbag December 11, 2018 at 2:13 am

    All the best dear Jenna! I’m happy to read whenever you’re happy to write. xoxo

    • Jenna December 12, 2018 at 7:43 am

      Thank you! Happy holidays Melissa!

  • Jen December 12, 2018 at 12:25 am

    If you ever feel inspired to share some of the tactics you’re using to shift the late night sleep schedule issue that you feel are having a positive effect, I’d love to read. That was the one health-related thing I was hoping to tackle this year, and I failed pretty miserably.

    • Jenna December 12, 2018 at 7:49 am

      Actually, it started with the time difference and jet lag when we came from Europe. I used that to my advantage. And then our oldest started high school with a completely different schedule and she often has to leave early in the morning, sometimes at 6:45. So I started pushing my usual late night bedtime earlier so I could wake up with her. Try shifting your bedtime incrementally in half hour early increments. Hope you tackle your sleep issues in the new year. Good luck!

      • Jen December 14, 2018 at 1:17 am

        Thanks! I had some east coast/west coast jet lag combined with daylight savings time that was helping for a bit, but it’s like one step forward, two steps back. Hopefully 2019 will be the year I crack the code!

  • willgoh2 December 16, 2018 at 12:06 pm

    I’ve said it many times, but I love your writing. You put in words exactly what I’m feeling on this coast. I have a teen, I feel the speed of time, I used to keep a blog, I wonder why I do art when I don’t actively pitch my word, I fill in the blank, you’ve written about it. Keep on keep on if you’re inspired. Your readers love it, but in the end, this is for you, and if it’s no longer fulfilling, then it may not feel genuine to you anymore… and I suspect then that it no longer feel like yours. But if it still feels true to your expression, please keep going.

    • willgoh2 December 16, 2018 at 2:40 pm

      sorry for the “typos”, commented on my phone.

  • Chai Ling December 17, 2018 at 11:53 am

    like how you write, always. maybe because i read sincerity. like a friend’s writing letter to tell how has she been.

  • Renita Gordon December 21, 2018 at 8:37 pm

    Still here …

  • Lara December 30, 2018 at 2:46 pm

    So glad to have checked in and found an update- this year, fall and the holiday season have felt completely different here too- a mix of new projects, and being settled into a place as we approach 3 years having left our life in the city- All the best to you and your family, I always enjoy and learn from you!

  • jone February 15, 2019 at 12:33 am

    I’ve started reading your blog years ago and however infrequent the updates are I still come here for the beauty.
    It’s hard to express myself but the way you share things you put beauty both in looks and in words.

  • Oil and garlic February 16, 2019 at 12:26 am

    I havent visited your blog in years but it is somehow comforting to know that you are still writing. I remember when your girls were so young!