It’s only April, but 2016 has already put me through the wringer. Where the rest of the year will go is anyone’s guess. I’m still trying to collect my thoughts and get my bearings around the fact that my tech start up has shut down quite suddenly, but the overwhelming response on that post and on Twitter is testament that our team built something special. I’m working on my own Medium post because there’s so much still to say about this experience, but for now, I’m still trying to process it all.
Watching the city bloom and the way the light progressively changes every day as we move through seasons has made the sadness and uncertainty a bit more bearable. Why? I guess because it reminds me that nothing ever stands still, even when you’re at a low point. There’s always symbolism you can read into Spring – rebirth and all that – but I’m trying not to overthink things and dwell too much on any of it. There’s many lessons to be learned, but when you’re still in the trenches it’s hard to see them for what they are.
I think the most challenging task in the next few months is to stay focused and try to stay away from thoughts that I’m moving backwards and not forward. It would be easy to feel like I’m back to where I started 2 years ago, but the truth is, this is really the first time since my brother’s death that I have stopped moving full speed. I’ve been through two major emotional breaks already this year. I’m pretty strong, but I’ll admit, it’s been really tough, and now I’m dealing with unemployment of sorts. It’s time to rebuild again. I might be writing here more often again and if you’re willing, I’d love to share the journey with you.