here we go

November 30, 2009 |  Category:   life





Hope you all had a great relaxing holiday weekend. Back to work already though, huh? It can be quite a drag coming off of the holiday highs, but I guess that is one good thing about working for yourself – the transition from days off to days on is a wee bit kinder.

Mark’s got a killer week coming up though with holiday orders starting to come in and a big show to get ready for on Sunday. He’ll be at the Bust Craftacular which has over 200 vendors and is supposed to be quite a busy event. I’ll see if I can break away from the kids to come down for a few hours, but I’ve got my own deadlines to deal with and have been working non-stop through the holiday. Seriously. I’ve totally plowed though my 2 projects (with a 3rd to start tomorrow) like a freaking rockstar while most of America shopped and ate turkey, just to prevent my upcoming week from resembling hell. All this while trying to fend off the same cough that the girls are still suffering from. I feel like I won some kind of lottery when the heavy feeling in my chest from yesterday just sort of dissipated today (hope it’s not a fluke). Plus it was near 60 degrees again in NYC.

But have you ever had days with relapses and start to second guess the decisions you’ve made? Something seemingly innocent could trigger it, like maybe you came across a snippet of news about someone you know and your mind starts wandering after being curious about what so-and-so was up to, and then you find yourself at the edge of the “what ifs”. I was never a corporate ladder climber, nor did I ever have any real interest in being some kind of big boss lady at an agency, but every once in a while I’ll come across something that will compel me to compare my career choices with that of other people. I suppose it’s human nature to be competitive, and lord knows I can be really competitive, but what’s with being envious of something that I have no interest in being in the first place, particularly in light of recent decisions to shed any semblance of corporate life that I even have? Bizarre.

Update: Spoke too soon. I AM sick. Nauseousness and heaviness in the chest. What is this? This doesn’t bode well for the week.

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  • kaylovesvintage November 30, 2009 at 4:43 am

    hi , I “‘m a freelancer also…and I got the same feelings..small world.

    wonderful photos

  • chantaleP November 30, 2009 at 8:24 am

    Hey Jenna, isn’t it easier these days to wonder and self-doubt ourselves when everyone (or almost) posts their lives on the web? How much is true and how much is “prettied” up for everyone to see? I think as an outsider, looking at your blog, your site, your business.. I can honestly say that you’ve already accomplished so much! Have you ever wondered that there are loads more ppl out there envying YOU than the other way around? lol. Yep, yep it’s true.

  • Beks November 30, 2009 at 8:47 am

    Hi, just wanted to delurk and say you have the cutest daughters. I know it’s not really related to the post but somehow I just felt I had to say it today 😀

  • gizella November 30, 2009 at 11:53 am

    fwiw, sometimes to me it seems like you have a perfect life, even in you both have to really buss your ass to make it work.

  • mina November 30, 2009 at 9:41 pm

    really beautiful photos.

  • ninja November 30, 2009 at 11:12 pm

    Oh … these photos capture perfectly what i love about fall! I can hear the crunch below my feet and smell the fragrant, multi-colored leaves that the wind collects in the corners of the streets. My kids picked up many of those prickly sweet gum tree seed pods as well (most of them as cat toys).

    Get well soon!

  • quyen huynh December 1, 2009 at 1:46 am

    Get well soon!

  • Deepa December 1, 2009 at 4:17 pm

    Miss. C looks like a sultry model posing for a glam photo shoot in “Missy Vogue” ( Tiny Tot version of Vogue yet to hit the stands:-)) Seriously, she is that Gorgeous.

    Love and Hugs to you. If it makes you feel any better you are welcome to come en famile, anytime you wish, to sunny Bay Area and camp with us(Me, Hubby, Handsome 5 1/2 year old son and a Mad Border Collie).

  • Marta December 1, 2009 at 5:41 pm

    Oh, I’ve just been thinking about the exact same thing a couple of days ago. I’ve made consistent choices that brought me where I am, and I guess given the choice I’d never go corporate (I think the ability to work in my pajamas is too much of a plus), but I kept wondering about the careers of my peers, colleagues from high school, and thinking wow, maybe I should be doing more/something else/go on business trips/etc. I think comparing yourself to others is inevitable, it’s what you do with the comparison that matters – do you decide it’s enough of an issue to go ahead and change something (and maybe feel it’s a copout of some sort years down the line), or maybe a few days later something happens that makes you appreciate your chosen path all the more? I actually hope it’s the latter.

    Sorry for the ramble! It’s just I’ve had the same things on my mind.

  • jodi December 4, 2009 at 6:58 am

    not easy but worth it!!!

    hey they’re all walking in the same step. funny.

  • david shin December 9, 2009 at 1:56 pm

    deeply impressed with your writing and pictures.