knocked back down

March 6, 2010 |  Category:   life


You didn’t think that I was going to post another photo of the flowers, did you? But they’re still quite enchanting, don’t you think?

So. I’m trying to have a good weekend and pick up the pieces after an awful Friday. Life has a way, sometimes, of kicking you down repeatedly which most times I can handle, but especially after climbing up to a certain feel-good place after news of Mark’s dad and being so sick, it’s been particularly hard to pick myself up. Overbearing, lifetime family problems that flare up when we decide not to ignore it, a mysterious case of nausea and mild stomch cramps for the last 18 hours (NO! Not pregnant!!) that has me feeling lethargic and on the couch, and news of a 20% increase in our health insurance premiums this year have left me feeling beat up again. How are we supposed to ever get ahead when our already ridiculous $1226 monthly health insurance bill is now going to be $1436? Maybe this is what is causing my nausea.

We’ll just have to work that much harder. Not sure what other choice we have.

But there is nothing left to do BUT pick up the pieces, is there? Besides, I’m determined to make this a good weekend. Mark’s sister, the girls’ beloved aunt, is here for the weekend before returning to Seattle after a 2 week stay with their dad. I am all caught up with deadlines so I won’t be working this weekend which really works well with my Saturday plans of lying horizontally on the couch. Winter seems to have kicked the curb, thank god, and I’m looking out the window to sunny, 50 degree temps and watching people play soccer in shorts and tee-shirts. And because of all the weight I’ve lost from illness and possibly more from this current bout of nausea (which may or may not be such a good thing considering my frame), my a-little-too-uncomfortably-tight, muffin-top inducing skinny jeans aren’t uncomfortably tight anymore.



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  • bess | english muffin shop & blog March 6, 2010 at 4:12 pm

    wow, jenna – those health care premiums are crazy! having grown up in Canada and currently living in Europe, I’ve never been faced with the burden of having to factor in my healthcare costs into my monthly budget. I hope you don’t let it get you down too much, but you know, if you want you could always move to Canada 😉

  • Shilo March 6, 2010 at 7:48 pm

    Oh Jenna, wow.

    I’ve actually been thinking of asking you how you and Mark make it as freelancing parents in regards to health care.
    My husband and I both have freelance career paths and with thinking of having kids and maybe moving back to the US, the health care issue is paramount.

    $1226 is horrible. $1436 is heartbreaking. It’s absolutely shameful that the cost of providing your family’s basic needs is so high.

    I hope you start feeling better. Spring in New York is the absolute best.

  • bronwyn March 6, 2010 at 11:45 pm

    $1400 would make me sick too. I’m appreciating my stupid cube right now. So sorry.

  • megan March 7, 2010 at 10:38 am

    get better soon! those premiums are ridiculous! i can’t imagine! hope the sunshine brings you healthy-ness and a big lotto win!

  • ChantaleP March 7, 2010 at 7:55 pm

    I was going to write the same thing as Bess up there. Wow, 1400 is outrageous. But everytime I hear about healthcare reform in the States, there’s a huge population who are, hm, how do you say this in english.. il se méfie du gouvernement. Uh.. are suspicious! It’s a necessary evil isn’t it? I will never moan and groan about my company’s crappy benefits ever again. Well, not as much anyways.
    Hope you’re feeling Jenna. The gastro is making its rounds right now. My mom just had it and in fact, was so severe she is still in the hospital.
    Wishing you a great week ahead!

  • ChantaleP March 7, 2010 at 7:57 pm

    I wanted to write, hope you’re feeling BETTER, geez. Cuz I know you’re feeling something.. just hope it’s something good! lol. Forgive me, it’s been a rough week.

  • The Vintage Bride March 12, 2010 at 1:02 pm

    What beautiful flowers – i sometimes love flowers more when they are a few days old and faded that when they are fresh! I hope they can lift your spirits as much as they did mine!