Mark’s enjoying his month off from the markets and so we’ve been planning little weekend outings like MoMA 2 weekends ago and a trip to the burbs in Long Island this past weekend. It was the first time the girls and I really got to ride in the new car. We’ve never had a new car before. It feels really fancy. Mia kept saying that she wished she lived here (in the town shown above, near where my parents live). I’m not really sure what that is about, but sometimes the girls say things like, “we need a bigger house”. Our apartment isn’t that small and our home doesn’t feel crammed so I’m assuming that they say this while thinking of their friends who lives in larger spaces than we do. I thought this NY Times article on Living With Less was worth a read. I think I’ve been trying to live our lives this way and have no ambitions of wanting a big house. I guess I like to think of it as a forced way to cut down on consumerism and owning stuff that we don’t really need. It’s really easy though – maybe even a very American way of thinking – to want a huge house and buy more stuff. Our economy is a consumer driven economy, after all.
Things are really busy around here and it’s a good feeling. I’m currently working on a project that has been enjoyable and engaging, and as such, I’m feeling pretty content these days. I recognize that my state of mind is often completely dependent on how busy I am with work and maybe that is a flawed path to happiness, but I’m not fighting it right now wishing that I had more time for personal projects or wishing that my life was any other way than what it is right now. I’m just trying to be present in the moment even if that means I’m working 12 hours a day on client projects only. If I’m really being honest with myself and I’m the happiest when I’m juggling a million things, then I’m just going to accept that for the time being. I’ll work on being zen at doing nothing when I have more free time.