Living Life Fully

October 29, 2014 |  Category:   life

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What is it they say, about living life to its fullest? The happy moments alongside the tragic, the stress alongside those moments of contentment? Anger, frustration, elation, victory, anxiety. Well, if that’s true, then this has been a very full year. I suppose I believe, more or less, in that theory that life doesn’t hurl things at you that you can’t handle. All that stuff about life lessons learned and getting stronger…after awhile it’s just noise. Most times you put one foot in front of the other because what other choice do you have? Keep up or drown and somewhere in between, hope that you’re making a difference in somebody’s life.

 

It hasn’t been easy writing posts lately. I used to bang out a blog post every night (who was that person?). Now it takes days to finish ones I’ve started. Putting down words is harder. There’s less I want to say, and there are some things I need to keep closer to my heart for now (more of life’s little blindsiding surprises). The road ahead of me isn’t going to be easy, but that’s my mistake for thinking there might be some kind of closure. There will be hard times, but lots of good ones too. In all of this, I’m actually thankful I can feel. Because when you stop taking in all these complex emotions and start feeling nothing, that’s when you should be worried. So the fact that I can stop and marvel at the colorful leaves, admire a flower on somebody’s desk, crave a certain food, or laugh at something the kids have said, is an encouraging sign that I haven’t given up. Far from it.

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  • Em October 29, 2014 at 10:57 am

    Thanks Jenna, always appreciate your posts though don’t always comment to say so. It’s been rough riding over here a bit and your writing has been great company, thank you.

    • Joann October 29, 2014 at 7:38 pm

      Same same.

  • Deliane October 29, 2014 at 11:02 am

    Thanks for not giving up and continuing with sharing your thoughts with us. Your words really do strike a chord and provoke thought for my own life experiences.

  • Rachel October 29, 2014 at 1:29 pm

    Don’t forget you’re human. Keep pushing forward… any small step in the right direction, regardless of how small, is progress and something to be celebrated. All of the peace & strength good vibes sent your way Jenna.

  • Colleen October 29, 2014 at 5:08 pm

    Yeah, I definitely needed to read this today. I really did, so thank you for getting these words down.

  • Marlena October 29, 2014 at 5:36 pm

    I understand. While I haven’t experienced your past year, I appreciate the time you take to share your thoughts, words and feelings.

  • Louise October 30, 2014 at 12:37 am

    I’ve been feeling along the same lines lately – thank you for sharing ~

  • Roos October 30, 2014 at 3:24 am

    Putting one foot in front of the other is the best thing you can do. And please don’t let your expectations mess with your head.
    Sending love,
    Roos

  • Lara October 30, 2014 at 9:25 am

    Wow, those pictures of spotted but beautiful red leaves really resonate with what you write about. Glad I had some time to read your post this morning – as always it makes me think a little differently about the day, and the chaos 🙂

  • Lulu October 30, 2014 at 12:22 pm

    To help me cope with recent bouts of melancholy and stress, I started seeing a hypnotherapist. I just completed 8 sessions @45 minutes each. Like most people, i imagine myself falling into a deep sleep and waking up like a zombie willing to do the chicken dance at any time. But it was not like that at all. The sessions made me feel relax and calm. And once again ready to face the world. You might want to look into this. I was skeptic like most people, but a recent change in a coworker’s attitude due to hypnosis made me try it out, and i am so glad that I did.

  • Mazi October 30, 2014 at 3:26 pm

    Hi Jenna-I’ve been reading your posts for a while now, but this is the first time I’ve left a comment, not sure why I haven’t before. But I really want to thank you for always writing with such honesty and realness. It takes a certain bravery to do that in the online space, it’s something I’m still grappling with my own blog. You do it well. Thank you for inspiring me not to be afraid to show it in my own words now and then. All the best.

  • Melanie Biehle October 31, 2014 at 3:46 am

    Hugs to you.

  • Diane October 31, 2014 at 8:43 am

    I rarely ever comment on blogs but de-lurking here to tell you how much I appreciate your posts- they do resonate and help me to move forward in my own life. I hope it’s a good weekend.

  • Dee October 31, 2014 at 12:46 pm

    As always Jenna, I thank you so much for your heartfelt, thought-provoking words. Thank you so much for sharing them with us and allowing us to share at least part of your journey with you.

  • Renita October 31, 2014 at 7:17 pm

    I really needed this today. Thank you

  • Burca November 1, 2014 at 1:51 pm

    I used to think, or rather was brought up to think, that this large capacity I had to feel was a weakness and it was not acceptable to show or express them. Thankfully I now know that it is such a gift and a strength. I have always found that it is in our toughest times we learn the most about ourselves and that makes us better as a whole in this thing we call ‘life’. Better full than empty. Thank you for sharing. Keep on keepin’ on. Best to you, x

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