It’s looks complex.
We all have our up days and our down days. We all feel insecure sometimes and lost. It’s normal and it has nothing to do with how old you are, how experienced you are, or how successful you are. It’s just part of being alive. I appreciated each and every one of your nice comments yesterday. I am sort of embarrassed by them I have to admit. I am never one to write something just to seek out comments and I would die a little inside if someone thought otherwise. I write what I feel (and maybe overshare sometimes), but that’s really all.
It’s been a weird year so far, let alone week (I did end up working after all so it wasn’t the unstructured free time that threw me off). Judging from conversations with some friends, I’m not alone in that regard. I still feel like I’m in new territory about certain things, one of which includes the business, but maybe that’s a good thing. And despite whatever head space I’m currently in this week, I feel like some things were accomplished. There was, in fact, some real moments of clarity.
I’m realizing that I need to turn off some of this internet chatter. There is so much chatter over what we’re working on, where we’ve been, where we’re going, who we’re hanging out with, what we’ve accomplished and we’re all high fiving each other every day and this is all really good stuff, but sometimes it’s really exhausting too. In the end, what does it mean anyway? I was thinking back to my high school and college days, before the internet, and how there wasn’t so much of this constant sharing. It was easier to focus on your own work without the distractions, obviously, but I was thinking more specifically that the circle of peers that you might have measured your work or yourself against was smaller. Maybe it was just your fellow classmates and some friends, but it was small. Now, it’s easy to feel like you’re constantly measuring yourself against the world. Who can live up to that? It’s time to get back to the small.