These days, I come here and don’t know what to say. Are people blogging anymore? If I’m going by the handful of personal blogs I read, I might be tempted to answer no. I wonder what’s changed, whether we’re sharing in other ways or choosing not to share much at all anymore.
I’ve been distracting myself with work this summer, piling it on and saying yes to a lot of projects (but also no, too). I suppose it’s avoidance, keeping busy. It’s been good and what I’ve needed, but in the last week I feel like I’ve hit a wall and I have lost all energy. Maybe I took on too much too soon. Suddenly, I’m craving the space to do nothing and sit and search through decorative pillows and side tables on the internet if I want to. One day after dinner when I headed back to my computer to meet a deadline, Mia asked me, “why don’t you just say no to work if you’re so busy?” I laughed because it seems reasonable and logical enough. The kids are like mirrors, telling it like it is and reflecting back what they see without any judgements. I just think I need to find a better balance, but isn’t that always the question?
Now that we’re looking into August, it’s that time when we feel compelled to cram as much of summer as possible in the next 4 weeks. We’ve been going places, seeing art exhibits (Jeff Koons at the Whitney Museum above), swimming whenever we can, and taking advantage of the free events in the city. Despite everything that’s happened, I think it’s been a full summer for the girls and every once in a while, I still catch my breath and think that we’re lucky to be able to raise them in a city where they can be exposed to so much.