slow + something sad

February 18, 2010 |  Category:   art + design life


Trying not to focus on how slow things are progressing on the ChangingMyCareer front. There have been many distractions and so much administrative stuff for the business to take care of, not to mention the hours it takes to respond to emails and inquiries every day. I’m doing a bit of drawing but not sure where it’s taking me. Instead, I’m trying to ride each day and trust the pace that things are taking, but still, it’s been quite challenging to find solid blocks of time to work on anything. I think if you have young kids, you’ll know what I mean. The day becomes so disjointed when one kid has to be dropped off and picked up every day and the other kid has an opposite schedule from the first. You learn really fast to work in 2-3 hour time chunks, which is not always conducive to productivity and sometimes not enough time to get anything rolling. It always kills me if I have to stop to go pick up the kid when I’m on some kind of roll, knowing that the momentum might be gone, but that is life as a working parent, isn’t it? We adjust.

We have never had full time childcare. We could never afford it. It’s always been about juggling work and family schedules for the last 6 years to make full time hours work on part time childcare. This is why it was such a relief when Mia started Kindergarten this year and why I’m excited to have some sort of predictable schedule in place once Claudine goes to school 4 days a week in September. It’s not a full day – the day ends at 2 for her and 3 for Mia, but still. It’s more stability in time than we’ve ever had.

This also will mean the end of our relationship with out part time nanny this summer. She has been with us for 6 years, 2 days a week, since Mia was 3 months old and I’m really not looking forward to the conversation that we’ll need to have. I am not so good with confrontations of that nature. It’s a big change for all of us and I can’t imagine being in a situation such as hers, to spend so much time with these kids, watching them grow up, helping them grow up, and then one day…gone.

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  • chickything February 18, 2010 at 12:26 pm

    I understand your dilemma but it would be difficult for the children too to not see their nanny anymore. I grew up with a nanny when I was a little girl and whenever a nanny is fired or let go of, it became a very traumatic experience for me. I suggest that you prepare the kids,let them know beforehand.

  • Kwil February 18, 2010 at 1:07 pm

    I just needed to say that I simply love your blog and the thoughts and stories that you share. Kudos.

  • leslie February 18, 2010 at 2:09 pm

    This is a wonderful post. My day is disjointed too, and I have to work during the small patches of time that I find scattered throughout the day. One of my three kidlets always needs to be dropped off/picked up, and this is terrible for my momentum. Sometimes I prefer to wait until the evening so that I can have an uninterrupted span of time to work. . .but usually by then I’m too exhausted to do anything productive. Okay, . 😉

    Thanks for posting this! It’s good to know I’m not alone in this!

  • Joanna February 18, 2010 at 2:10 pm

    Although it may not be the best conversation to have, you will no doubt find the right words when the time comes. Good luck and hopefully things will look more positive as you move forward.

  • Anna February 18, 2010 at 3:01 pm

    Maybe she could some occasional evening babysitting just to keep in touch?
    I imagine that would make it less painful for her and the girls.

  • Charlene February 18, 2010 at 8:40 pm

    I love your blog!!! I just found out about it!!! This is so inspiring!

  • suann / simplesong February 18, 2010 at 10:18 pm

    All thoughts I totally relate with – we’re starting schedule changes on our end + I’ve got a lot of anxiety about it but looking forward to working for longer than 2 – 3 hour chunks.

  • anna February 19, 2010 at 10:09 am

    This is sweet Jenna. I t will be alright

  • Renita February 19, 2010 at 2:09 pm

    I hear you … but this will be an oppotunity to revisit and or make room for new project/tasks. Everyone (adults/kids/pets)need ‘adjustments’ to mature and grow.

  • loren February 23, 2010 at 10:48 am

    slow and steady wins the race. hang in there x

  • Kate March 25, 2010 at 2:01 am

    Muchly late reply to this post 😛
    I grew up with babysitters and nannies, and my parents managed (somehow!) to keep in happy contact with all of them, even when they had been replaced by another for whatever reason.
    Invitations to a lunch as a friend, or an occasional paid outing helping my mother keep track of me and my many brothers at the park, zoo or movies… so far as I picked up on there were no hard feelings, and they’re still friends with many of them 20 years on. I even babysit their children occasionally!

    I do remember my mother saying to my particular favourite babysitter (when I was the baby, and the last kid not to have gone into school yet) something like ‘I’ll miss days like this once Kate’s in school all day’, and ‘we’ll have to make sure to get together when you aren’t round here all the time for Kate’ months ahead of school starting.
    It was a real realisation moment for me, since I was suddenly like “huh? what? I don’t get my babysitter anymore?”, but it meant it was out there in the open, and we all had time to prepare for it.