January 22, 2012 |  Category:   life

Ah, I guess it won’t be a snowless winter after all. A few inches, not a big deal, but we were out in the burbs at my mom’s where snow plows come when they come so we all used that as an excuse to stay home. The girls played in the snow while my dad used his electric snow blower to shovel the driveway, Mark rested as he was dealing with a rare 24 hour flu of some sort, and I squirreled myself away for the whole day to work on a challenging, but stressful work project.


It was a fine weekend.


I’ve been getting this weird nagging feeling lately that I’m not thinking big enough. It takes enough as it is to get through each day, one day at a time, but it’s true – I’m not really sure where we are “going”. Future dreams that once made sense seem to have lost their sparkle. I feel like we can keep going like we currently have been for however long as it will sustain us, but for me, that is not enough. The next steps are not clear. I don’t have a plan and I’m not sure what I want to do. I just know that I don’t want to wake up in 5 years feeling like I haven’t gotten anywhere.

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  • Sarah January 22, 2012 at 9:33 pm

    Snow days look like so much fun! I hear ya on the big plans and rethinking them. Five years seems so far away yet I know it’ll be here in no time. I’m ready for a happy shake up this year. 2012 seems like it’s gonna be a good one for adventure 🙂

  • Kate365til30 January 22, 2012 at 10:44 pm

    I soooooooo understand that nagging feeling you are getting. I was getting that feeling too and it is what led me to start my project – – I had to shake things up in my life!! Maybe do a vision board to create images of future hopes and dreams..:)

  • Jill January 23, 2012 at 12:30 am

    Ah, the familiar song of the overachiever. It’s a curse and a blessing and I completely understand where you’re coming from. Despite a demanding job, your beautiful family, multiple web stores, your blog, photography, markets, and on and on — you still want more! Curious — are you feeling inspired much these days?

    My grandmother once told me that learning how to be content is one of life’s biggest challenges — it requires constant patience with yourself and an honest evaluation of all of your successes and accomplishments in life. Grace isn’t inherited — we have to work for it. Now if only I could take her advice and put it into practice, haha.

  • scentual soundtracks January 23, 2012 at 8:40 am

    Funny, I was journaling this morning about the same exact thing: thinking and dreaming big. I will say though that your family has accomplished a lot! But I know that there are always ways that we can continue to grow and develop, and I hope that you find tangible plans and outcomes to focus on for your family and business plan this year. P.S. Love the pink knitted hat!

  • wishful nals January 23, 2012 at 9:41 am

    oh, goodness, how i can relate.

  • Hasenfeld J January 23, 2012 at 9:58 am

    Move to the country and start a flower farm. So much pressure/stress in the city
    Life is so short…..

  • Justine January 23, 2012 at 11:09 am

    Solvi has the same hat. Course ;).
    And you’ll figure it out. I can see you’re brewing up something which just has quite materialized yet.

  • Atsuko January 23, 2012 at 11:14 am

    It was funny that I have been in the same feeling nowadays. I was getting irritated by not knowing where we are going in our life and where I am going with my career. Then, I saw one post, which said it is not a good idea to have plans always. You need to leave a space for the God who can guide you to be where you should be. But honestly this comment eased me temporary. So, I wrote down what I want to accomplish. One of the list was to take barrel lesson. Ha ha. I genuinely feel that you have accomplished so many things as I have been reading your blog. But carrying an ambition to be better is a good thing. I hope you can start making an inspiration board or something to brainstorm where want to be in your life/career five or 10 years from now.

  • Laura January 23, 2012 at 12:05 pm

    Wow, I feel the same. Feeling like I need to have more of a plan for the future and not sure where to start in making that plan!

  • Jen January 23, 2012 at 1:30 pm

    I was excited like a child when snow hit Seattle last week. Talk about the good times the grownups were having on the streets of Capitol Hill. And I hear you on that feeling of not wanting to wake up years from now feeling like I didn’t do what I wanted to or be where I want to be, although the exact whats are still unclear. I’m in my mid-30s and I’m still trying to figure myself out. But sometimes that’s not a bad thing. Oh, and Happy Korean New Year!

  • Jess January 23, 2012 at 5:14 pm

    The snow day looks grand. I’m sitting here in a tropical storm wishing I could rug up and go out to your snow. I also think a lot of readers wish they could slip out of their life and into yours… I think the grass looks always greener on the other side, discontentment is human nature. I think it certainly has it’s place, in that it may be what makes one strive to make positive changes to their life. But I really found Jill’s grandmother’s advice powerful. I am going to take that on board for myself.

  • Jola January 25, 2012 at 9:37 am

    Dear Jenna, we can’t get anywhere, the globe is round 🙂 But travelling is important and what you do on your way, who you meet and what you learn. I’ve been asking myself a similiar question, do I want to be here in 5 or 10 years, in this place with those people? An what about me, do I want to be with myself? What do I want for myself.

    Thank you for your blog, I love your thoughtful posts, a bit of realism and magic 🙂

  • Alisha February 1, 2012 at 4:38 pm

    Lovely post. I can definitely relate with the whole hazy goal feeling, especially when it comes to my work. I keep getting ideas, fizzling out and doing the whole thing again. Most of the people I know shaking things up do quite a bit of planning ahead to make that happen, not exactly my strong suit. Let’s hope things become clearer soon!

  • Megan Champion March 20, 2012 at 9:36 pm

    that makes two of us