snow, rinse, repeat

February 7, 2014 |  Category:   life rambling

Nothing new here, just a whole lot of snow, a whole lot of cookies, a whole lot of work. But things are starting to bubble ever so slowly. There’s life under all that white, I swear. Second month into the year and the year is already taking shape. Nothing concrete, but a feeling. Sometimes that’s all we have to go on, isn’t it?

We sit at the table lately talking about where we’re going. The answer isn’t an easy one. It’s a bit hard to not to feel like we should be doing more when seemingly everyone around us is going big. We’ve chosen small and I think we’ll keep it that way, at least a little while longer because things, in fact, are working fine so why change anything at all? Why? We ask ourselves. Why settle for fine when we can dream big? Does it even make sense for us to go bigger? I don’t want to give up my freedom, I argue. Is that an acceptable answer? Maybe I hide behind it too often as an excuse, but it’s all I’ve got right now and the one thing I always come back to.

The business certainly roots us here, but there’s a certain amount of flexibility that keeps us from feeling stifled. I’ve come to realize that I try to protect that, above all, and it’s how I want to live my life. Maybe that is dreaming big to me. I didn’t necessarily think that it could last as long as it has and we may never get rich on this lifestyle we’ve crafted, but I’m almost ready to accept that it’s a tradeoff I’m ok with. At least for now. Small risks might net smaller paybacks, but possibly with less stress involved and damn if that isn’t worth something.

Right now, from where I’m standing, that’s huge.

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  • Pink Ronnie February 7, 2014 at 5:38 am

    Less stress is totally under-rated.
    I’m glad you’re onto it!
    Ronnie xo

  • Myla February 7, 2014 at 8:55 am

    Love this! I go back to one of my girls’ fave classic, “The Tortoise and the Hare.” Slow and steady wins the race. I suppose it’s not even really about winning but meeting your needs and levels of contentment.

  • Mieke Zamora-Mackay February 7, 2014 at 10:27 am

    This was a great post, Jenna. The same goes for families with parents who work full-time like us. Living a rich life doesn’t necessarily mean having overflowing cash on hand to burn.

  • Trish O'Shaughnesy February 7, 2014 at 1:16 pm

    You are very thoughtful in your posts. That is such a rare thing in the blog world these days. I often feel like my husband and I are on a different path then many we know. Sometimes I worry about that. Do we value different things? Do we define success differently? If we are not striving for more, bigger, better are we cheating our kids? Or are we living the authentic life for us? It seems like our generation, our country has such a specific definition of what a successful life should look like. Bigger house, big parties, big living. Is it bad to want a smaller life, more time at home in my smaller house? Less travel sports for the kids and more family time at home? My husband is very content with this path we have taken. He works very hard but puts money away. He never seems to feel a need to keep up with the Jones. Anyway, I ramble but I wanted to say that my husband and I relate and have these talks all the time too. Thank you for posting. You always seem to have a way to put into words what I have been thinking about. Glad that there is a blogger who is my age and in my place in life.

    • Jenna February 7, 2014 at 1:28 pm

      Oh, exactly Trish, these are all the same questions that rattle around in my brain all the time, down to the travel sports. It is really hard with our schedule since Mark does weekend markets for us to do travel sports since there is SO much time commitment and traveling involved. So…are we cheating the kids because they don’t play team sports? But really, how many activities can we schedule?? I worry that we haven’t started formal music lessons yet, but there is only so much money to go around for this stuff, plus summer camps, you know?
      I don’t think a smaller life is a bad thing, Trish. Actually I think it’s good! Hone life down to the things that are most important to you, never mind what anyone else is doing. It’s really harder now more than ever because we know so many details of other people’s lives thanks to the internet, but focusing on what is authentic, as you’ve put it, is key. Thanks for your comment.

  • Lani February 8, 2014 at 3:25 am

    That kind of insight is so powerful, but to find it at your age is super great. Glad to see on this path.

  • Lani February 8, 2014 at 3:26 am

    Errata: See you on this path.

  • Nancy February 8, 2014 at 9:34 am

    I just read this blogpost about “What to expect when you’re a sports mom” and it sounded like a total nightmare to me. She has three kids, they all play sports, they’re on travel teams, etc. They have no free weekends, they get home late at night. That family thrives on it but that kind of thing makes me anxious and tired. I think it’s fine to organize your life in a way that allows for flexibility. I’m doing my best to do that, though my 5 year old is starting softball and that makes me nervous.

  • christine February 11, 2014 at 2:25 am

    thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and fears so honestly 🙂 i’m always really inspired and moved by your posts!