Seems like this year I blinked and all the flowers were gone. Didn’t revel in them like we do every year. We missed the cherry blossom festival for the first time in years and we didn’t even get to enjoy our favorite cherry blossom tree in the neighborhood. The branches are low enough that the clouds of lush pink blooms envelope you once you step under the tree. It’s a total sensory experience that we look forward to every Spring, but somehow, we missed it. We didn’t even get to skip across the petals that fall to the sidewalk – the best kind of confetti you can find. The flowering tree season seemed to have come earlier this year, but blew out just as fast. May’s been a rather wet and dreary month. Colder than usual too. Maybe that’s why Spring felt so off.
This first month of working from home again was filled with busier than usual freelance projects and organizing business plans, that I don’t actually feel like I stopped going full speed. And that’s a funny thing because it’s the same amount of work that I juggled with a full time job. I guess the difference is that there’s a bit of breathing space and not the tear-your-hair-out scrambling to get it all done. It’s a relief to not worry about child care, to be able to have it covered so that Mark doesn’t have to rush home from the kitchen to pick the kid up from school on my office days. And I suppose this is true too – that you end up filling any extra space in your time with other things. Maybe it’s stuff that you’ve neglected while focused elsewhere, but that space fills up fast.
It hasn’t been all craziness though. I don’t miss the morning commute with several hundred other New Yorkers crossing the East River into Manhattan on the subway every day. Nope, don’t miss that at all. I’m enjoying the quiet of the house in the mornings after the kids have gone to school and drinking my coffee out of my favorite mug instead of a thermos. There’s been long talks and coffee dates with friends and neighbors too, something that I really missed. I was so entrenched in online life because it was part of my job at the startup – building communities and diving head in on live video – that I made a conscious decision to take a break from all that and connect with people in real life.
So the mission as we enter into summer – officially with Memorial Day weekend just around the corner – is a simple slowdown before me miss more of these moments.