It’s been a little over a month since the big change and I’ve been thinking about the way in which I’ve been spending my days and what my definition of productivity means. I think the most challenging thing about working for myself and from home again is to make sure there is some semblance of a structured daily schedule, otherwise it’s far too easy to let the day get away from you. With a blink of an eye, 6pm could be staring back at you leaving you wondering where the day went. To be honest, though I am making sure to set aside time for some relaxing and soul-feeding activities (I’m exploring art again, but that is a different post for another day), I’m trying to examine why I feel this constant pressure of time and I don’t really have any good answers. I’m guessing that if you’re used to a certain pace, you just end up filling your day with other stuff. Basically, there is never enough time, ever.
Self-doubt, as we all know, is a killer of productivity and growth, but so is racing against yourself and putting unrealistic time constraints on your goals (though we did do that all the time at the startup). Eliminating the full time job didn’t necessarily make life simpler but it did create room for all the things that I never had time for. That’s the good news. On the other side of that coin is the HUGE list of business and personal tasks that I’ve organized and documented. Although I’ve never been a listmaker, one of the things that I’ve taken away from my time at the startup is a better documentation of process and laying down metrics for productivity (I know, this sounds like startup business jargon, but at least I didn’t delve into KPIs!).
But that’s the different approach that I’ve taken to the business this time around. Because I’ve always maintained a separate work identity in the past, I let the business basically run itself. Now the approach I’m taking is that the business is my work with freelance as my side gig – not the other way around. It’s a subtle shift in thinking, but it does affect the way that I prioritize and look at things. Still, the challenge of not getting frustrated when results don’t manifest fast enough, remains. The point is, I feel as busy as I ever was. But! I’m trying to take a step back before life gets overwhelming again and remember why I have decided to choose this path in the first place.