the funny thing about time

June 14, 2016 |  Category:   life

It’s been a little over a month since the big change and I’ve been thinking about the way in which I’ve been spending my days and what my definition of productivity means. I think the most challenging thing about working for myself and from home again is to make sure there is some semblance of a structured daily schedule, otherwise it’s far too easy to let the day get away from you. With a blink of an eye, 6pm could be staring back at you leaving you wondering where the day went. To be honest, though I am making sure to set aside time for some relaxing and soul-feeding activities (I’m exploring art again, but that is a different post for another day), I’m trying to examine why I feel this constant pressure of time and I don’t really have any good answers. I’m guessing that if you’re used to a certain pace, you just end up filling your day with other stuff. Basically, there is never enough time, ever.


Self-doubt, as we all know, is a killer of productivity and growth, but so is racing against yourself and putting unrealistic time constraints on your goals (though we did do that all the time at the startup). Eliminating the full time job didn’t necessarily make life simpler but it did create room for all the things that I never had time for. That’s the good news. On the other side of that coin is the HUGE list of business and personal tasks that I’ve organized and documented. Although I’ve never been a listmaker, one of the things that I’ve taken away from my time at the startup is a better documentation of process and laying down metrics for productivity (I know, this sounds like startup business jargon, but at least I didn’t delve into KPIs!).

But that’s the different approach that I’ve taken to the business this time around. Because I’ve always maintained a separate work identity in the past, I let the business basically run itself. Now the approach I’m taking is that the business is my work with freelance as my side gig – not the other way around. It’s a subtle shift in thinking, but it does affect the way that I prioritize and look at things. Still, the challenge of not getting frustrated when results don’t manifest fast enough, remains. The point is, I feel as busy as I ever was. But! I’m trying to take a step back before life gets overwhelming again and remember why I have decided to choose this path in the first place.

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  • Bethley June 15, 2016 at 11:37 am

    Any chance you’ll be selling prints of your photos? I love both of them on this post.

    • Jenna June 15, 2016 at 7:28 pm

      Hi Bethley, I may start selling photos again, yes. Not sure when or which platform, but I have been considering it 🙂

      • Tim McMurdo June 20, 2016 at 7:40 pm

        When I started following you so may years ago, it was because of your photography. It took some time for me to find the beauty in your words. Your ability to be self aware. Your soul searching and never ending journey towards something that you can’t see but know is there. When your words are brutally honest and revealing is when I feel the strength of your thoughts the most. Your eye has beauty, your thoughts have beauty, and I feel privileged that you share them with the rest of us.

        • Jenna June 22, 2016 at 9:47 am

          Tim, as always, appreciate your thoughtful comments and glad whenever I see your name pop up around here. Thanks for sticking around all these years! It’s remarkable to me that some of you long time readers have, especially when I haven’t given my all here the last few years. Hope all is well.

  • Rachel July 5, 2016 at 2:29 pm

    Your writing is always so real, and I really appreciate it. I’ve stopped following a lot of personal blogs, because (speaking of time) I was getting overwhelmed by how much reading material was piling up on my blog feed, but I kept yours on the list, because I really enjoy it…even if all I do is usually lurk around and not comment much. Anyway. I enjoyed this. =]