we’ve seen better days

February 15, 2011 |  Category:   life

I’ll admit, it was a crabby day. The whole Valentine’s thing didn’t help. I’m sooo a curmudgeon, but this holiday sort of annoys me. Is that terrible? The kids seem to really dig it though. They spent part of Sunday making cards for each one of their teachers and classmates and Mia came home with a bounty of cards and candy. It’s all about hearts, the color red, cute little cards and candy. Wish life were that simple.

New Yorkers were reveling in 50 degree temps today. The snow from January is almost all gone. I really wanted to spend the day walking around by myself, but it wasn’t meant to be, too many annoying little things to take care of at home. I spent a good hour sitting on my bed in the sun instead. I felt like the cat, and in fact I did kick the cat off the bed in order to hog the patch of sun to myself. Mark went to the Flea Sunday sick and woke up to go to the kitchen at 7am, only to return within an hour because he wasn’t feeling well. He spent most of the entire day in bed, asleep. Though we rarely get sick, the schedule and lack of sleep sometimes catches up on you. Hopefully he’ll awake in the morning feeling much better because one more day out of the kitchen and we’ll be behind on orders. It’s non-stop when you own a business. You don’t get sick days and Mark did in fact drag himself out of bed in the afternoon to push about a dozen packages to the post office in his granny cart (the people need their cookies!). This is when I sat in that patch of sunlight on the bed, while he was gone.

Sometimes you feel melancholy for no particular reason. I sort of sat there spacing out, feeling a bit overwhelmed by stuff. It takes a good bit of work to stay positive and happy, but I let my guard down at that moment. I think most times we’re so busy that we don’t really stop to think – but maybe that’s a good thing. Or maybe it’s denial. But then you snap out of it because it’s time to pick up the kids from school and then you’re off again.

Tomorrow is another day.

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  • carla February 15, 2011 at 1:34 am

    There is a vulnerability to your writing that I really appreciate. The ups and downs of weekly (daily?) life can be hard to balance. I’m a new asst. kindergarten teacher, and have had a hard couple of weeks recently. But I decided to make valentines for the kids this weekend. One little girl hugged me and said, “I really appreciate your effort!” It was so cute, and endearing. And just like that, I am centered again and back on track. Thanks for your part in letting others into your life a little to also find the simplicity of this.

  • h February 15, 2011 at 2:10 am

    hope you have a better day tomorrow!

  • FunkySteph February 15, 2011 at 4:22 am

    Things usually get better if you look at them from a different angle (easier said than done…)
    Have a great tomorrow. Take care.

  • Emma February 15, 2011 at 6:45 am

    Yep life is like that. Keeping busy is a good thing because those days I have too much time on my hands I think too much. Or something.

    Hope your hubby gets well soon.

  • mery February 15, 2011 at 7:39 am

    i know exactly what you’re talking about. jenna, i hope your day brightens up!

  • Dana February 15, 2011 at 7:59 am

    Sometimes I feel melancholy for no particular reason, I guess itยดs just part of being a woman, or better yet, just part of being human… ups and downs and up you go again… iยดm sure tomorrow will be a whole different story. smiles forr you

  • bronwyn February 15, 2011 at 8:18 am

    Yep! That melancholy for no reason thing sucks! If there’s a reason, you can at least deal with it. I hope today is a better day.

  • Kathleen February 15, 2011 at 8:42 am

    I’ve been struggling in that in-between place where I’m trying to decide if I’m going to give in and have a good cry from feeling completely overwhelmed and sorry for myself or if I’m going to be a fighter. Or maybe not even a fighter but just normal.

    Cheers to tomorrow.

  • Cynthia February 15, 2011 at 9:30 am

    What was that song from Annie…the sun will come out tomorrow… could be the winter doldrums…. it seems like forever since we’ve seen pretty bright flowers and you’ve enjoyed the labors of your father’s veggie garden…spring is just around the corner! I can feel it in the air and the days are longer and brighter ๐Ÿ™‚ Won’t be long till your wearing those new sandals! Wishing you and Mark the best ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Robin February 15, 2011 at 9:40 am

    Jenna my father and I own our business and with the economy all our employees had to go. So it is just me and him – more like me and me as he never learned to do what others did for him. I sat working with a 101 degree fever yesterday wondering how nice it would be able to have a corporate job with sick days, holidays and at this point vacation days. I feel your pain!!! It SUCKS to HAVE TO work when you are not well. :

  • Nichole Robertson February 15, 2011 at 11:02 am

    Pushing through over here as well. I got a cold out of the blue last night and am bone tired. Of course an emergency assignment comes through today.

    Hang in there. At least there is the cheeseover to look forward to.

  • sarah February 15, 2011 at 11:16 am

    sometimes the best thing is just knowing you aren’t alone in feeling the way that you do. I understand exactly how you feel! lucky for all of us readers that we have people like you out there blogging and sharing your life to make us all feel a little more “normal”. hang in there jenna… things will turn around and the sunshine is likely right around the corner!
    p.s. i hope mark feels better ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Renita February 15, 2011 at 11:20 am

    Nothing wrong taking a ‘breather’ …. no doubt that you will catch your stride and be present …. hope you get a chance this weekend to really ‘reset’ ….

  • Louise February 15, 2011 at 12:37 pm

    You are entirely normal. My husband and I have our own business and juggle it with two young children, so I know where you are coming from. Tomorrow is another day. BTW, I only came across your blog recently and think it is absolutely lovely. You’ve inspired me to go ahead and launch my own blog that has been in my ‘head’ for ages …..

  • Annie From Seattle February 15, 2011 at 1:23 pm

    You are kicking ass, even on your “off” days. Hang in there. A bowl of virtual chicken soup to Mark!

  • wendy February 15, 2011 at 5:38 pm

    i know what you mean about those down days. and sometimes it’s having to get up to do the next thing that saves me from getting too caught up in it. hope mark gets well soon, and that you’ll be able to get some time to walk around by yourself soon too.

  • Laura February 15, 2011 at 9:31 pm

    I too have been feeling out of sorts and just overwhelmed by things lately. Hopefully this won’t last and we both will be in better spirits soon!

  • Carolee February 16, 2011 at 1:26 pm

    Aww I went to the flea on Sunday to hopefully see/meet you and met Mark! Sorry to hear he was sick! (he did not seem sick at all!) My friends & I totally enjoyed the treats and hot cocoa… yum!

    And heck yes… I feel like artists always sort of melancholy? I love listening to depressing music for no apparent reason. Makes me feel deep. heh

  • jennifer February 17, 2011 at 10:46 am

    ugh. on the bright side, i love this photo. my husband brought me home a bouquet of cotton branches like these once…he didn’t even realize how perfect they were.

  • Tatiana February 24, 2011 at 12:42 am

    Hi Jenna,
    My name is Tatiana and I’m a new reader of your blog, and I love it. Love your work, the pictures and even felt inspired and tried the strawberry pie, I took some pictures to send it to you guys.
    We are form Brazil but living in Portland, OR, and it’s really nice to ready your txts because it is easy for me to share some of your thoughts. I just want to let you know that I feel inspired by you, its a good thing to inspire people don’t you think?
    Thank you