what, you don’t have giant striped balloons in your city?

June 29, 2011 |  Category:   life nyc outings the biz

I still don’t even really know what Rainbow City is and we just went there.

School’s out. As predicted, Mia shed a lot of tears so Mark and I decided that she needed to go to a happy place. Bouncing around Rainbow City seemed like a happy idea. I’m relishing the fact that I don’t have to wake up early in the mornings for a few weeks until camp starts, despite whatever time the girls decide to wake up. It’s like I’m on summer vacation. I know. I’m pretty lucky that they are so self sufficient in the morning and don’t wake me up, ever. I’m also relishing this time of relative leisure which has started this week. Ok, the truth is I actually spent the day yesterday panicking on and off about my light work schedule. I think it was the first day since I decided that I wanted to take most of the summer off that I felt worried, irresponsible. No one is paying me to take a vacation. After all, if I don’t work, I don’t get paid.

But let me explain the need for this break. I often feel like I’m stuck in a vicious cycle: I want to expand our business and work on a few personal projects, but there is never enough time because I need to work to support our family, but none of these things are going to happen unless I free up more of my time. I often think how backwards it is that the business often takes a backseat to any other work obligations that I have. We’re trying to build a future with the biz, so shouldn’t it be the other way around? So this isn’t about a break from work. It’s a break from paying work, but I’ve got a list a mile long of things I want to get done. There’s a personal project that I’m working on that requires a lot of time, time that I will never have unless I make the time, so I am deciding to make the time. Sometimes when I let fear and rational thoughts creep in like it did yesterday, the decision seems questionable. Other times it feels like it needs to happen if I ever want to take a step outside of this cycle and try to fulfill anything on my list of goals. It’s scary. But I think I’ve come to the realization that things won’t really fall into place unless you start investing in yourself.

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  • diamondkelt June 29, 2011 at 9:43 am

    100% agreed. Keep on keepin’ on.

  • Kimi June 29, 2011 at 9:55 am

    Absolutely. The one guiding principle I’ve ever felt worked is the regret question—will you regret it forever if you don’t do it (whatever “it” is)? If the answer is yes, then say Goodbye Caution, I’m throwing you to the wind.

  • jodi June 29, 2011 at 10:02 am

    yay! i was at rainbow city yesterday, too. i’ve been twice and i still don’t really understand it.

    hang in there. things always have a way of working themselves out, don’t you think?

  • Renita June 29, 2011 at 11:25 am

    I’ve come to realize the ‘list’ never goes away. Just like laundry, it just grows … but you are great at managing it.

  • anna wu June 29, 2011 at 12:29 pm

    ms. jenna, i appreciate and respect how honest you are. more often than not, when i read your writing, i feel like you’re writing exactly what’s in my mind and on my heart..just a heck of a lot more cohesive than i 🙂 prayers for peace and comfort in your heart. enjoy this summer time..go you!

  • Susan June 29, 2011 at 12:39 pm

    Talk about a happy place for kids, whoa color!

  • Renee June 29, 2011 at 1:02 pm

    It’s like that toy we used to play on, on the playground, the merry go round. I am realizing that i am sitting and holding on while it goes around and around. To do some of the things I think I want to do I have to make an intentional movement to put my foot down, which does seem to take some fortitude…can’t wait to read how your summer unfolds…

  • Sara Jensen June 29, 2011 at 2:14 pm

    I wish we had been able to go with you! We went today. I would not have made that trip alone and lived to tell the tale (or blog about it). Love these pictures. I wish that billboard wasnt there.

  • Dinah Claire June 29, 2011 at 2:51 pm

    The photos are stunning! Even when I don’t have time to read posts I always hop on to see your pictures. Today I could read you post, however. Good luck with your break! I’m taking one too. We’ll surmount the guilt yet!

  • Anna June 29, 2011 at 8:10 pm

    woah. rainbow city is crazy! Too bad V is too young to appreciate it…or is she?

  • Jenna June 29, 2011 at 8:16 pm

    @anna wu – thank you so much for your comment!
    @sara I didn’t mind the billboard. I liked the weird juxtaposition.
    @Anna I think V might be too young though she might like the colors. It’s only open till next tuesday. early morning would probably be best before it gets too hot.

  • Gower June 30, 2011 at 12:19 am

    Jenna, I completely “get” what you’re saying. Your posts speak to the hearts of so many of us women/moms who wear multiple hats and every day must make important decisions on what is best for our families. Thanks so much for sharing and for putting into words what so many of us moms feel. Kudos to you on your break and to all the good the future holds for you and your family!

  • Meghann July 1, 2011 at 10:57 am

    Very interesting. Looks very Mario-ish.

  • Jane July 14, 2011 at 12:18 am

    A 10 year plan … I’m going write this up for my family (and my business) right now! Okay, maybe tomorrow!
    Why haven’t I done this?
    Oh, and those balloons …. spectacular!